When we met, we had a spark
When we sparked, we made a beautiful fire
One half of me, one half of you, evenly balanced
You took what I had that you needed, and I did the same
We healed each other, through the toughest of times
When we reached our next chapter, we were in it together
Two warrior spirits against the world
The task was monumental but we made it work
Throughout the hardship and trials, we had each other
You’d say things would always work out, I believed you
And they all did
When we first faltered, we still held each other
Two immovable cosmic energies of love that could not sway the other
One hurt from within
One hurt from the other
But, in each others eyes, we still saw the fire
I stayed, because I truly believed your spirit was destined for mine
You stayed, and I forgave
You’d say things would always work out, I believed you
And most did
When you two talked, I knew it was different
In my heart a different feeling emerged
One of worry and doubt
The group was good for you, and I didn’t want to take it away
I started talking to express the worry in my heart
I ended talking reassured
You’d say things would always work out, I believed you
And some did
When you said you had the conversation, I believed you
I believed it was done
I was relieved, yet the feeling in my heart remained
I tried to talk and let you know
I told my self it was my problem being more insecure
When you bonded our kindred spirits in the kitchen that night, my worries left and I knew you were forever
You’d say things would always work out, I believed you
And they didn’t
When you were gone so long, I had a hole in my chest
Something cosmic told me something was wrong
I was unsure of the anxiety’s cause but it was insurmountable
When you got home late and told the story it didn’t go away
When you’d hide your phone it didn’t go away
When you compared my worry to when you accused me it didn’t go away
When you stopped wanting to spend time with me it didn’t go away
When you got more upset than I’d seen you get upset with me before it didn’t go away
That morning, I knew in my heart what was going to happen, what my brain had explained away
That day, my life was on pause
That night, my love died
That night, my soul died
It makes sense the only force strong enough to break an intertwining of spirits so robust would need to be the one who built it
My soul, crudely torn away from yours
Pieces left behind
Torn and wrenched, tighter with each lie
If you had tried to make it work with me, would I have ever found out about the rest?
With time it will heal
But it cannot regrow all
A piece of me forever stuck with the poisoned fruit
A shell of what once was
Just as our relationship started with poems, it must end with one
But not as a vow, as I hoped.
Not with the spiritual ring you created upon my hand and then shattered
As my futile attempt of closure.
As a goodbye.